Here I am with 2
days to go until my very last day and I am so excited!! This has been a long
time coming for me. I’ve wanted to leave this job for years and finally the
clouds have shifted and I am doing just that. Actually, what really happened is
I changed my perspective. See, when you change how you look at things, those
things change so I changed how I view my life. I changed how I view the world
and I made a list of the things that I want to do and the things I don’t want
to do. I made a conscious decision of what’s important to me and what’s not
important to me, and this is the year that I am ridding myself of all of the
things that don’t serve me….anymore. It’s sort of like finally cleaning out your
closet of all those size 6 pants and dresses you’ve been holding on to because
one day…uh we all know how that story goes.
Well I’ve faced the fact that I am where I am because of choices I’ve
made in my life. I’m not saying they were bad choices, but they were choices
that were made to please other people and not myself. Again, that was my choice
and I’ve learned not to blame anyone. For some people that can be a hard pill
to swallow but once you come to that realization; it actually frees you to take
better care and responsibility of yourself. Yes, some things are out of our
control but most things are in our control and those are the things I’m
referring to. Anyway, back to those size 6 pants and dresses that I’ve had for
years waiting for me to get back down to that size…. I’m passing them on to
Goodwill. In fact I’m passing on a lot of my clothes to Goodwill. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not giving up on being a size 6 again(
actually, I’m pretty happy where I am with myself right now and I think I look
great) I’m just accepting where I am right now and letting go of those things
that don’t benefit me. I’ve learned to love and accept myself so much to the
point where I can look in the mirror naked and smile at myself instead of
picking myself apart. I’ve learned that this physical body is important but is
not who I am; more so, it’s a container to house my beautiful and wonderful
spirit. Yes, I may have abused it with food but now that I understand its
purpose I am dedicated to making better eating choices because I need this body
to carry me on to my new adventures. I need this body to work at its best
because I have a son and grandkids that I need to hug, nurture and encourage. I
have sisters who need to hear my voice and see my smile; I have nieces and
nephews who need my ears to hear their troubles and my wisdom to guide them.
And I have parents who need the strength of my legs, and arms to assist them
with some of their needs. This physical body is very important and how I care
for it is also important because it’s not just about me. So as I continue my
quest towards a happier and healthier lifestyle, I’m starting small so that I
don’t fail. I am limiting the amount of salt & vinegar chips I eat and making
a better choice with a new chip called Veggie Straws. I can pronounce every
ingredient and one serving is 38 straws. See, it’s all about the baby steps………2
days, yippeeeeee!!!!
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